At the moment I've been noticing a particular pattern/ behavior of mine flare up in a way - where I'm participating in it more and more. In the past it would then trigger judgments, and frustration because what the heck - I'm allowing this behavior when I'm in fact supposed to be changing it. Though I've seen this before.. where you are in a way working with a particular point to change, then it all of a sudden seems like you no longer have control over it, and the behavior/pattern has a mind of it's own... this has happened when I've been actually directly working on such a point with the use of Mind Constructs in the Desteni I Proccess . Mind Constructs are a specific tool which allows one to dig deep into the roots of certain behaviors... sourcing the memories of our life where we have through time created and substantiate the behaviors/patterns that are now playing out in our life. I have been working on this particular behavior that I've not
This is a continuation of a series I am currently walking: 181: The Birth of a Bully 182: The Birth of a Bully part 2 183: The Bully Character in All it's Dimensions: Memory #1 184: Bonding over Names and Shared Interests 185: What we Allow within Inferiority and Superiority 186: Seeing Equality Through Polarity & Dumping Life for Illusion 188: Who I am Within the Decision/Choice I Make So looks here we are into the physical dimension of the experience of myself in the moment of 'dumping' my friend Cristina for a desired definition of myself: Raising the tone of my voice because Cristina did not believe me - so raising my voice as 'getting more serious' so that she will understand that I will no longer be her friend I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to raise my voice tonality within frustration as the reaction to Cristina 'not getting it' wherein she did not actually believe me that I would no longer be her friend and
On a final note... this Journey to Life was to birth and realize ourselves as life. This past summer I came to the realization I had realized who I am as life and it hit me then... I have realized myself as life lol It kind of snuck up on me. Everything I had been working towards was here, came and went without me even really noticing as it was a gradual unfolding and next step in my process. I will admit I imagined a more extreme and extraordinary moment but the truth is, I had just come to some realizations about myself and who I am and what I want out of life, and what I will and will not accept and allow within myself and from that, I realized the statement of "I know who I am" implied I had realized who I am as life. I could say in full confidence within myself that I know Who I Am as Life. It was done, just like that... truly like a thief in the night :) So now... the next point. Self-Creation. This is when things get fun. Enjoy and I will see you around!! My new blog M
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